I haven't blogged since last Wednesday. There's a lot going on around me right now. A lot that I can't really share here. I have just found myself emotionally drained. I don't know why I let that happen to me. I should keep a level head and just watch from afar and evaluate, but nooooooooo. I've got to go and let my heart and my head get involved. So, what to do, what to do? I will go to Him. I will sit and think and pray.
I was taken to Psalm 119:65, 66 where it says: "Thou hast dealt well with thy servant, O LORD, according unto thy word. Teach me good judgement and knowledge: for I have believed thy commandments.
That is what I need. Good judgement. Some people are great judges of characters. My husband is great for that. He can see trouble (usually) coming a mile away. He will warn me when he gets that bad "vibe". Me? I usually laugh it off and say, "Oh, you're being too hard. That person is just misunderstood..." Only to have it buy me in the backside later. I just think that every person is real and honest upfront. Isn't that how it should be?
Then I am taken to Psalm 121:2 that says: "My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth." My God made the heaven and the earth and all that lies therein. You'd think I could trust Him to see me through these rough patches, right? Where is my faith. I am challenged to remember that He is awesome and mighty. There is nothing He can not do for me.
I like to have some quiet time in the morning before the rugrats are up. I have my coffee, the birds are singing outside and I can pray, meditate, read. I love it. However, there are days when I don't want to have that quiet time. Isn't that sad? The reason I don't want to have it is because I know that I will have my energy and spirit renewed. My problems or cares won't be fixed in a "snap", but my burdens would be lifted. Why wouldn't I want that to happen you say? Well, because I am human and sometimes we like to wallow in our self-pity. I know I do. I don't readily admit that to others - but hey - you are the lucky few that read my blog and get to know this. =]
My final thought today is this from Psalm 143:8 - 10: Cause me to hear thy loving-kindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee. Deliver me, O LORD, from mine enemies: I flee unto thee to hide me. Teach me to do thy will; for thou art my God: thy spirit is good; lead me into the land of uprightness.
If you are confused, hurting, wondering whether or not to forgive, feeling lost...I hope that these verses bring you some comfort or relief. I hope that you will share a comment or even a verse that has helped you. Yeah, serious post for me today, but I have been feeling this way for about two weeks. I want to breathe easy again!